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there will be feasting and dancing

in jerusalem next year


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WHAT I AM THINKING ABOUT LATELY, FANNISHLY SPEAKING

Doctor/Master ficlet - Man says to the universe, I exist! )

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Hi internets!

It is not my twenty-first birthday anymore, but it was a couple of hours ago.

Life is, on the whole, pretty okay.

<3

Yuletide funtimes!
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The night before Yuletide signups closed [info]dsudis poked me over chat. You know what you want to do, she said in an insinuating fashion. In vain I protested that I never attempt challenges as people only get their hearts broken. If this goes horribly wrong, you can all blame her.

I got my assignment today, though, and it is kind of exciting. \o/

And now for the other half of the game!

Dear Yuletide Writer...

Donna Tartt - The Secret History )

RPF - Classical History and Literature )

Shakespeare - Coriolanus )

Tom Stoppard - Arcadia )


Things That Are Surprisingly Effective At Cheering Me Up
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1. Sitting in the library, reading about Cicero

It's odd the way I keep forgetting how much I love my degree. Marcus Tullius Cicero, you guys. He is witty! He is urbane! He is pompous! He slips into Greek in his letters to his closest friends because it makes for a great injoke! He worries, oh how he worries, about what people think of him.

2. Yoghurt for breakfast

Om nom nom.

3. Jane Austen

Hey hey hey, you guys, I read Mansfield Park last night and nobody WARNED me it was going to be sad! Are we really meant to ship Fanny and Edmund? They are going to be so dull and uninteresting together; neither one of them will ever push each other even a little bit outside their comfort zone, neither one of them will get any better than what they already are. I mean, what they already are is pretty lovely. But it's nothing except lovely; there's no sparkle, no excitement.

4. Letters

Hey - does anyone want me to write them a letter? I feel the urge. It's probably because I'm reading so many of Cicero's letters. In fact, I can't guarantee that anything I write won't feature a brief synopsis of the political favours we've done each other over the years and end with the words 'cura ut valeas'. But, you know, speak up if you want one. I can't promise to get to them before term ends (looking forward to term ending so much, dear lord) but mmm epistolary communication. Who here has read Evelina? What about Feeling Sorry For Celia? What other epistolary romances can you think of?

5. Text messages

In general, I am totally over my unhappy adolescence and associated angst, but there's one thing that endures from years of being lonely in high school; I will never get over how surprised and pleased and cheerful just getting a text makes me. Someone thought about me! \o/

PET PEEVE OF THE DAY
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You know what I really hate?

Facebook.

I really truly do. Every so often it hits me how terribly banal it is, how very little anyone on there cares about anything I actually have to say - and how little I care about what they have to say as well. Who on earth cares what someone did today? Most people's lives are boring. (Most men lead lives of quiet desperation, someone made me watch Dead Poets Society recently and that stuck.) What people do isn't interesting. What they think is. It's a rare person who can fit a truly brilliant thought into a status update. If my Facebook feed were populated with aphorisms and wit instead of X lost my phone!!! and Y is on Facebook instead of working... :( that would be different. It's the soul-crushing combination of people being not quite interesting enough to be worth it, not quite dull enough to be ignored that gets to me. I don't think there's anything in the world that convinces me more totally of how completely justified my essential misanthropy is than the fact that if I quit that site tomorrow everyone would be baffled and want to know why.

I do have a friend who did that last year, actually. Funny thing: her social life still seems to be going just fine. Maybe I should follow suit.

[original] Fic: A Love Story.
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Let us suppose we are confronted with a desperate thing -- say Pimlico. If we think what is really best for Pimlico we shall find the thread of thought leads to the throne or the mystic and the arbitrary. It is not enough for a man to disapprove of Pimlico: in that case he will merely cut his throat or move to Chelsea. Nor, certainly, is it enough for a man to approve of Pimlico: for then it will remain Pimlico, which would be awful. The only way out of it seems to be for somebody to love Pimlico: to love it with a transcendental tie and without any earthly reason. If there arose a man who loved Pimlico, then Pimlico would rise into ivory towers and golden pinnacles; Pimlico would attire herself as a woman does when she is loved. For decoration is not given to hide horrible things: but to decorate things already adorable. A mother does not give her child a blue bow because he is so ugly without it. A lover does not give a girl a necklace to hide her neck. If men loved Pimlico as mothers love children, arbitrarily, because it is theirs, Pimlico in a year or two might be fairer than Florence. Some readers will say that this is a mere fantasy. I answer that this is the actual history of mankind. This, as a fact, is how cities did grow great. Go back to the darkest roots of civilization and you will find them knotted round some sacred stone or encircling some sacred well. People first paid honour to a spot and afterwards gained glory for it. Men did not love Rome because she was great. She was great because they had loved her.



Oh, Mr Chesterton. You make me want to try to be extraordinary somehow; you make being extraordinary seem not just a reasonable goal, but the only reasonable goal.

Today I finished a story! I'm pretty pleased with myself about that, it's the first time in a good long while. It's about dragons and princesses and lawyers' children.
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A Love Story
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'Madam,' said Turner politely. )

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So I know I'm the absolute last to know, but hey: this song is pretty great!

...does anyone have an mp3 I could snatch?
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I am halfway through reading Orthodoxy by G.K. Chesterton. At the end of every chapter I find myself letting out a long slow breath, a sigh of relief or satisfaction or both.

How can we contrive to be at once astonished at the world and yet at home in it? How can this queer cosmic town, with its many-legged citizens, with its monstrous and ancient lamps, how can this world give us at once the fascination of a strange town and the comfort and honour of being our own town?

...I wish to set forth my faith as particularly answering this double spiritual need, the need for that mixture of the familiar and the unfamiliar which Christendom has rightly named romance. For the very word "romance" has in it the mystery and ancient meaning of Rome.


And this:

Once I remember walking with a prosperous publisher, who made a remark which I had often heard before; it is, indeed, almost a motto of the modern world. Yet I had heard it once too often, and I saw suddenly that there was nothing in it. The publisher said of somebody, "That man will get on; he believes in himself." And I remember that as I lifted my head to listen, my eye caught an omnibus on which was written "Hanwell." I said to him, "Shall I tell you where the men are who believe most in themselves? For I can tell you. I know of men who believe in themselves more colossally than Napoleon or Caesar. I know where flames the fixed star of certainty and success. I can guide you to the thrones of the Super-men. The men who really believe in themselves are all in lunatic asylums." He said mildly that there were a good many men after all who believed in themselves and who were not in lunatic asylums. "Yes, there are," I retorted, "and you of all men ought to know them. That drunken poet from whom you would not take a dreary tragedy, he believed in himself. That elderly minister with an epic from whom you were hiding in a back room, he believed in himself. If you consulted your business experience instead of your ugly individualistic philosophy, you would know that believing in himself is one of the commonest signs of a rotter. Actors who can't act believe in themselves; and debtors who won't pay. It would be much truer to say that a man will certainly fail, because he believes in himself. Complete self-confidence is not merely a sin; complete self-confidence is a weakness. Believing utterly in one's self is a hysterical and superstitious belief like believing in Joanna Southcote: the man who has it has `Hanwell' written on his face as plain as it is written on that omnibus."


It's not merely that he says things that are wise: it's that he says them well, and that he doesn't quite say everything. He makes me want to write in answer. I once read a book in which one of the characters herself described reading a book, and she said: it wasn't that the book itself was right, for it was not quite right; indeed it was annoying that it was not quite right, because it was almost right; it made you want to ask it different questions to see what it would say. That's how I feel about Orthodoxy.

Oh, oh, and then sometimes he comes out with things that are just perfect, like this one -

You can make a story out of a hero among dragons; but not out of a dragon among dragons. The fairy tale discusses what a sane man will do in a mad world. The sober realistic novel of to-day discusses what an essential lunatic will do in a dull world.

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How does a male vampire have sex? Practically speaking. An erection kind of requires, you know, bloodflow, and this is something that vampires are renowned for not possessing. Are they effectively impotent? Or is the reason that they typically prey on attractive young women is so that they can first get the blood and then...?

Supposing you were in a relationship with someone and then that person was turned into a werewolf. Would the newfound and unexpected pack instinct give them emotional needs they didn't have before? Or to put it another way: would there suddenly be a lot more 'heel!' 'stay!' 'down boy!' in your life? Or to put it yet another way: is it bad that I want to write a story about, ahem, putting wolves on leashes?

How does sex with a zombie feel for the zombie? What's the worst thing you could say while screwing the reanimated shell of what was once your true love? ('Well, honey, I've got good news and bad news, and the good news is that we can probably sew it back on.')

...and where are my clothes?

ETA: Clothes successfully located! \o/

Meme: write a love poem in fifteen words
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Stolen from [info]ignipes. Mine:

love is a sharp edge )

Now it's your turn! Write a fifteen-word love poem. GO.

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the i-envy-this-about-you meme


:D?

Still in Ireland. Jumped off the pier this morning. Happy to report that the North Atlantic is still bloody freezing.

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Dear LiveJournal,

I do actually have lots of things to tell you and I finally have a laptop again, but I am off to Ireland VERY SHORTLY. I will be back at some point. DO NOT BREAK THE INTERNET.

Love Em xxx
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Jesus, I leave you guys alone for two minutes and Panic breaks up? You just can't manage without me, can you.

Also, guess who is in New York! We're singing a service in a cathedral here on Sunday and until then I am free as a bird. Anyone want to hang out tomorrow? :D?

I miss you livejournal xo
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Gone to the States.

Back in July.

xxx
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But in other news, GUESS WHO GOT A MOTHERFUCKING FIRST.

Oh hell yes. Part 1B can suck my dick.

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So yesterday [info]kickingrad came to visit me! And we hung out and gossiped and bitched and generally had an awesome time, and then we went over to my friend's place for dinner around five-ish and stayed there for hours watching Lost In Translation and messing around with tarot cards, and it was all pretty awesome, and then we got back to my room at half past midnight to discover that someone had climbed in the open ground-floor window and picked up my laptop and camera before letting themselves out the door.

I feel like such a fucking moron right now, I can't even tell you. OPEN WINDOW. What the hell kind of idiot does that? I've got a fairly recent backup but there's some writing stuff I'm pretty sure is gone for good. Not that much - I would be in floods of tears if I'd actually lost all of it - but some. The only things that weren't backed up were my anime fansubs because they were too big. Goodbye, Hikaru no Go. I'll miss you. :( And now I can only get at the internet via public computers, so goodbye, pornfiction habit.

I'm not going to be around so much for the next month or so. Partly because I'm gonna be ON CHOIR TOUR WHOO and now partly... yeah. Just. Yeah.

[info]kickingrad was really fucking awesome, though. She sat up with me until three in the morning until I calmed down enough to go to sleep. And she only called me a dumbass a little bit. ♥

My grades for this year come out today. Online, of course.

FML.

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The Naked Time is the most awesome episode I've watched so far.

:DDDDDDDDDD )

his alien love
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1.1: The Man Trap, or, in the future archaeologists will study polystyrene )

1.2: Charlie X, or, IN THIS EPISODE UHURA SINGS A SEXY SONG ABOUT SPOCK IN THE MESS )

Don't you think it's fetching, Bones?
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HELP HELP I HAVE IT BAD FOR JAMES TIBERIUS KIRK.

Also I want sex slave fic. Nobody snicker, you all know me. Except that I want it to be like - okay! Kirk is captured and sold into slavery, everyone runs around like headless chickens and worries about whether they will get him back and if he'll be HOMG TRAUMATIZED when they do! And then when they finally do track him down and rescue him he's just like, 'You took your time!' Also he is maybe wearing an outfit sort of similiar to Leia's shiny space bikini in Star Wars.

And of course he is not traumatized at all. He has been having loads and loads of awesome sex with hot aliens who are extremely reluctant to sell him back. Because if there is anyone in the world who would enjoy being a professional sex toy, it is Captain Kirk.* In fact, possibly he hasn't even noticed that he's been sold into sex slavery. He thinks he's just been taken hostage. It makes perfect sense to him that all his captors seem to want to fuck him; that's what he'd do, if he had himself prisoner.

I have also been reading lots of Kirk/McCoy fic. Did I mention how much I love that this fandom hands me a BFFs pairing and a Best of Enemies pairing right off the bat? *hands* Now, you know, if only there were more than one major female character, that would be awesome.

*It was his next choice after 'space hero' and 'rockstar'.

SOLD.
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Finally saw the new Star Trek film. Why hello there, shiny new fandom. I foresee a summer spent working through TOS. Any recs, guys? Good episodes to start with? Youtube links?

ohmigodohmigodthatwassoAWESOME

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This comic makes me gleeface. I would totally read the story of the lady professor who takes a not-so-classy guy and turns him into a classy lady.

I discovered NetHack today. It is going to eat me alive. \o/

Also, a meme!

who do you ship me with?